looking at the bright side

sooo afraid...i'm afraid that one fine day when i go to practicum, my student teach me instead of me teaching them. kids nowadays are freaking genius...especially when we have to teach students in schools near the developed city. what if senior teachers said something than can make me feel stupid or silly, for example "we have to teach her first before she enter the class" and then walking while laughing. pretty creepy isn't it? hummphh...ok, i know it is tooo early to think of practicum but, let's move forward rather than reverse the time and regret it...

i wonder what will i look like when my age reach up to 20+....? yup...will getting older and older and wrinkle and wrinkle...that is why miss Leong always said 'take care of your sleep, sleep early, don't work to much.." 

so that is why i want to committed with what i'm doing now (not take care of my beauty, but as a future teacher.) be a good teacher in this world and after life,  even though it is not my ambition or option, but i'll try my best to cooperate. InsyaAllah...

teacher is not just teaching and teaching, they can also do something else...well, let me tell you. i have lots ambition before when i was young..

when teacher A ask me: "what you want to be when you grown up?" 

i said: a police

then the next day, teacher B will ask the same question and i said: a soldier

then the teacher C came and ask, i said : an Archeologist ...

you see..it's always changing..like i don't know what i wanna be when i grown up and it is really silly. half of my friends in the class at school said they wanted to be a teacher but i just looked them with my straight face...acted like i-don't-care...but, at the end of the day, i am the one who being a teacher. ironic right....but, there are some other things that i really really really want to do besides of being a teacher...such as, be a photographer, a news presenter, a TV journalist, and actually i really want to be an archeologist..when i look all of these, i feel like i can't reach it..not even a tiny bit of it. it's far away. *sigh... hummmppphh...it's ok..

i'll do it slowly...as long as i committed...InsyaAllah...