Assalamualaikum w.b.t, In the name of Allah, The most gracious and the most Merciful
i know it's kind a bit late to wish for myself 'Happy Birthday'
but..yeah..getting old and getting easily to forget
since this semester is the very busy time..(exam!)
how can i forgot that 19 September is my birthday..*sigh
when kak nurul asked me last month about ticket 'hari raya'
and again asked me on what day that we wanted to come back here (Campus)
so, i said "19th lah, it's better..even though it will be tiresome, but it's worth it"
i forgot, that month is September..
it's really pathetic
then after discussing i remember that it is my birthday..ayooh..
so, i personally celebrated my birthday on my own
by
renew my aims in my life
which some of it are:
1)Perform Umrah&Haji
2) Get degree on TESL
3) Get a job (teacher)
4)Buy a photography camera
5)Get a license
6)Buy a car
7) get married
and so on...
well, there are some of my aims
I don't wanna list all my aims
i'm afraid people will say that i'm show off of whatever
since this is my last -teen year, and next year will be selamat tinggal cik Las and selamat datang cik Luh,
i wanna enjoy my teen year
but at the same time, i wanna be mature in thinking
face the Allah's test calmly
i admit that
sometimes, Allah's test is really powerful and sometimes it makes me really cannot accept it
and it turn me upside down,
He gives me a lot of test in friendships, assignments, last minute works,my group attitudes..
sometimes i just wanna burst my anger to them and
sincerely speak up what that i'm not satisfied with them
feeling like being bullied sometimes,
but again
i'm already 19-years-old
i wanna deal this problem like a mature person,
i don't wanna shed my tears
cause' i'm already sick and tired of crying about assignments, group works, friends...etc
but like many people said
the more we want to improve ourselves
the more Allah gives test to us
cause He wants to see whether we can handle it or just walk awayand give up,
sometimes, i think about that
i ask why i think i'm the only one whose having a tough tests?
cause when i see my friends
they seem really happy and without thinking of any problems
but, who am i to ask Allah's will
i know behind these sort of problems
there will a sweetness and meaningful lessons
InsyaAllah
1 comment:
everyone has their own problems dear. some are very expressive, they showed it. and some are not, like you. keeping it to yourself, not talking about it, ignoring it which in the end, making u even more stressful. some people whom u see as not having any problem, they fill their life with laughter and happiness so that they will not feel very sad about the problem they faced. got me? :) forgive me for not being very co-operative during our group discussion, because i really do not know how to do it. *movie maker* u know how good i am in giving advice and not listening to it. so, got problems, come to me la babe. i'm here.
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