chasing the infinity : Ex-cogigate part 2 (we are blessed)

1.52 am.

and this is the real one.no joke.finally I got some better input to update this second part.of course some stories to share.this time around is about my family.our family.

I am proud to say that our family is blessed.not because we possessed a lot of fortunes or living large but we are in the opposite of that.
this year again,2011.it's not going to be easy for our family to get through this.there's a lot of things have been going on lately.I know it's too early to sum up for this year but since I couldn't hold any longer,so,screw it.

this is the year where ayah like almost frequently drove down to KL with bros.and sometimes by bus.this is the year where abg long had his heart surgery in February which already tore me apart that I couldn't go because of the classes.of course.being the eldest in the family is always the heavy burden.all of us were worried about him.he quickly decided to take on the operation ASAP before it's getting worse.After the operation,kak epah said he only can nod and just listened since the heart still wasn't in a balance condition.even now,he still felt it and couldn't really ride a car.it's bumpy.well,if unless you bought a BMW,that would be another story.haha.John la ni yang suggest.but Alhamdulillah..he's getting better.

also, this is the year where my 17 years old nephew,involved in the accident.and this is the worst part in our family hist.we didn't expected that his wounds were going to be worst because in the outside,his condition didn't tell any further complication.but, after the x-ray.it became different.with the doctor suggestion, we had to agree that he had go on with the operation.Eyna send a text telling that she tried not to cry in front of him by looking at his condition.so, I did a last minute decision,quickly packing things up and went down to Shah Alam.asked John to pick me up and he also decided to take a day off.I lost my appetite to eat.a nice nasi kampung with some anchovies suddenly became blend and tasteless.but I know my stomach was grumbling like crazy,so,I pushed myself to swallow it with a plain water.felt sorry to kak epah cause I showed up some awkwardness to her.I just couldn't help it.there's not much to talk about since I was only thinking about Yum's condition.even until now,I keep thinking about his condition.maaf kak epah.I'll make it up to you somehow.

I cried every time thinking about him.not just me.but,all of us.since he's one of our perfect childhood, we don't want to lose him.we grew up together even though he was a very naughty boy when he was a kid.destroyed my birthday cake and pulled my hair.but, we know that he's ridiculously a very tough boy.he got a long way down to go.he's a rugby player,what do you expect? of course he will keep holding on.we believe he can get through this.I know we can get through this together,yum.you'll be fine again.just don't worry.be tough.be strong.like always. =)

that's what I just said.we're blessed not because we are lucky and fortunate.but, blessed because of Allah's obstacles.Giving us some challenges to test our family and we didn't even felt frustrated about His tests.because we know when He puts us to it,He also will help us to get through it.just like Eyna said 'Biasa la tu..sekali sekala kena rasa jugak' which makes me think of what she said is true.you cannot have a perfect rainbow without a rain right?

my advice.be grateful.pray for people around you no matter where they are.love your parents.because at the of the day, they will be the best friends ever in your entire life.rethink and re-decide if you want to do something.and always always pray for your parents.

and I guess that would be the end of it..May Allah bless all of you..

so much love,
-R-

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