companion

it's worry-free moment.

well not exactly.I'm home.close.away from Ipoh (at least).since all my friends going back to their hometown, I decided to go to my sister's house in Ampang.some of them keep asking why I didn't just go back. because it's heartbreaking every time I leave my house like that, with my mother's eyes locked at me. it's heartbreaking. I hate myself for being like that. One day I'm in the house, talking with my mom and one I disappeared, like the wind. I'd stay. I will in a long term.

there's actually so many things I wanna do, places I wanna go, and people I wanna meet. I don't mind doing all by myself but, I'm still hoping for the moments that I'll just keep going. only this time still, I keep doing things all by myself. sometimes I do feel pathetic. on the bus alone, no one besides you. walking alone, no one walks beside you. no one, special. 

no.
I don't expect a boyfriend. I want my other half, my companion and my one and only soulmate. I'm pretty sure that there is a difference between a boyfriend. excuse me for being imaginative or too much to ask, it's just so hard for me to find one. exactly one. because I'm terribly a freaking introvert, I don't have much charms, I love books so much, I'd bleed caffeine if you hurt me, and I can be a narcissistic biatch sometimes, I don't wanna change of who I am.

If I still haven't found one, then I'll just keep going. somewhere along the road. 

:)

R