One ANOTHER after ANOTHER......

i dont know how i'm gonna start this..everything seems blur images for me. i need strength and patience to get through my life in campus. Today i have a fever..my body feel weak and i cant do much activities. i just thinking of relax my body and lay down on bed. seriously today i do not have mood at all to studying and learning. i cannot think straight. but, i just want to be patient with this test. i know and i believe that Allah s.w.t will give a test to who He wants and loves..He loves to someone who can except His test..and i totally believe that He loves me... =)

Before being test in this FEVER thing. i've been test on my patient and the way i handle things. Last saturday, my friend wanted to go to Giant..and then i said i wanted to go too. so, i quickly grabbed my towel. After that, i quickly put on clothes and ready to wear a scarf. suddenly, thing was not happen according to plan. she said the cab was already full or in another meaning...I CANNOT GO..you do not know how it felt like. i was sooo damn angry. why you dont tell it early..? i was soo excited to buy a dress for Ladies' Night before this. but i cannot change the fate right? sooo...i laid on my bed alone with my ready-to-go clothes, crying...i dont know why i was crying...maybe my friend never did to me like this~ it is simple to forgive someone in any kind of situation but for me it is really hard to forget someone when they TOTALLY piss us out!

As Allah s.w.t creature, i know it is not ok to keep some HATE, JEALOUS AND REVENGE in my little heart. but, i'm not perfect..i admit that i have that kind of feelings. if somebody says they never jealous, hate someone or put some revenge to someone..you can tell them that they are lying...because you see, we as a human being are NOT PERFECT. the only one who got all the perfectness is ALLAH S.W.T. so, we cannot judged people when we see them and said 'ooh..she is sooo perfect..she never talks in a loud voice, she never mad at us..' for me..that is not the way we judged people.