Life sometimes, kick you in a butt isn’t it?

24^th May 2015

This week is a horrible week for me. I feel like I wanna crawl into bed and don’t wanna get up, I feel like I wanna cry all day and just get some sleep.  I’m so sad and I really need a warm hug right now. When uncle Unos gave me that paper, I felt like my world has crumble into pieces and by the time I know it, my eyes are already glassy and I got choke in a throat. Dear retarded Linus officers, why do you have to be so cruel and heartless? Don’t you know that I am in a fragile position for the past three months because I miss my parents so much? I didn’t see their faces for three months and it is the longest months of my life because I’ve never been far apart for my parents for that long. By the time you people decided last minute to have a Linus Presentation on 6^th June which already on holiday, I broke down. You guys are the worst officers that ever known, you guys never got a job done in satisfying dates. I hope you people could rotten in hell for making me looking forward to end this week. I thought this Thursday, I could pack all of my clothes and go back.

Now, just what I’m gonna do? wait for another torturing days to go back? Again, you guys are the worst. I hope karma hit you back real hard like a slapping on the back no, like a fireball throwing at your face til you didn’t recognise yourselves on the mirror. Just watch, you’ll get back what you give and what you did to people. I am so freaking emotional right now, pardon me for my disturbing sentences.

I just don’t get it.

Why do you have to work like that? why do you have to work so lousy? Why do you think you can do anything to us just because we work under you?

For the first time in my life, I drove back from school crying. And it’s been awhile I didn’t cry while fell asleep with tears on my face, now that I did today and woke up with a headache. I cried and I’m tired then I fell asleep. Right after I woke up, I was unconsciously crying again. closed my eyes and tears continue streaming down my face. The sadness won’t easily go away. I miss mak and ayah so much only Allah knows. This is the worst, one of the worst day of my life. It’s so unfair. I tried my best and yet this is what they did to me?

But, you know. I really feel it’s unfair but I also believe in His will. Which is why every time I fall to this situation, I plead my heart to receive it with an open heart but it’s not that easy.

“Redha..”, I whisper to myself, tears roll down on my cheeks again.