All hail single ladies

They said single ladies always look attractive and flirtatious. Don’t you think so? I was once thought like that whenever I was strolling around a mall around, walking through the bookshop alone or buying clothes alone. whenever I was caught up with lovey dovey couple in front of me I couldn’t help but to feel awkward but still, I couldn’t care less. Sometimes I could feel they guy’s eyes glancing at me while he’s standing beside his girlfriend. how can you be such a jackass in front of your girlfriend. but I guess is in men’s gene. To couldn’t help but stole a glance at women no matter how ugly or beautiful the women are. And I guess that’s us. We’re beautiful in our own ways. Every girl is beautiful in their own ways.

And to have thinking every single ladies are flirtatious are quite durable accusation.

But now the table has turned. Not entirely but half of it. half of my universe which was once grey in colour suddenly disperse and splitting into different colours. I was scared. Well, I am scared. Until now, to come to think of it makes me shudder. I was once like one of those girls who wake up with messy hair without any cares in the world. I was once like one of those girls who eat carbs and sugar non-stop without caring about my weight and thinking am I ever gonna fit in those skinny jeans.

Because things now become different when you realize that, there is someone, is out there for you. You feel so cheesy and gooey inside. Butterflies in your stomach are another story. But to think that someone is out there, who likes you. sometimes I feel so stupid smiling alone or reading the text with that stupid smiling face. Because I once, never like that. I’m that irritated person who keeps rolling her eyes whenever she sees a couple who making a sweet stupid scene at the mall like sharing ice cream and joking around. This kind of shifting makes me different and insecure. It’s like half of me wants to stay single and another half, don’t want to be alone. Half of me have falling in love entirely for him while half of it, still in doubt. Has my heart has splitting in half? Goshh..

But still, the highlight is.

When you look at some women going out alone, sit in a coffee shop alone or strolling in a bookshop alone. it’s not because they aren’t beautiful or ugly or less.

Maybe because, just because,

It’s her choice.

Have you ever thought of it?