when we think about LOVE....we quickly judge that love is between opposite gender. girls and boys...we always stick in our mind that true love comes from him or her...but, you know what? i think that's not true. i don't say that you cannot love someone or fallen in love in someone else. if we love someone and that is our true love, and you say he or she is the most person i need, most person that i love, most person that i want to spent my time with...but, why you still need to raise you both palm in the air and ask Allah s.w.t for help? then, you say your lover is the most i need..but, why you still begging and crying for His help? don't you ever think that way? don't you ever feel GUILTY while Allah s.w.t always observe you...? if you say that is the true love, why..me, myself end up with nothing for had my 7 years relationship? please...this is for remainder to my friends and also myself..you must remember, the devil always always besides you to let you go astray~~Let me tell you why i broke up with my boyfriend...even though it's quiet embarrassing to tell this, but i 'll try to be mature because i want to help Allah s.w.t and Prophet to spread Islam religion. why i broke up?
a) i feel sooooo guilty when i'm facing Allah s.w.t everytime i want to pray. it's like, you already know the rules but you don't follow it and that make me more guilty. what is your feeling if someone lie behind you but at the same, always praise you and praise you half dead. same with Him...
b) try to give myself a chance to change. let me tell you frankly, before this....i was the person who did not care about my 'aurat'. i just wore want i want to wear and wear which i think it's beautiful, nice and can attract boys. but, now...i give myself a chance to change such as enter Lujnah, participate in Usrah...i'm more particular on choosing the clothes..then, everytime i wear clothes, i will make an intention 'i wear this clothes because of Allah" not for someone else..that is why i satisfied with what i wear. from what i can see it now, who knows from a girl like me turn out to be a better person than before, but i also can see it that some of my friends from 'Agama school' turn to be different and definitely not reflex themselves as students from 'Agama school'..i don't know why..maybe because of culture shock or something. so, i feel responsible to pull them back to the right path. but, that will take times...a very long time. now, i can know how our Nabi Muhammad s.a.w feels like when he wanted to attract people and to show them a right path. it's totally not easy at all.
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