the-my-fault-day

i know i made so many mistake in my life. today, since in the morning, i don't have a passion to live life. because everything happen not according to plan. i don't know where did i go wrong. yea, i know maybe its my mistake. put a blame on me. there are so many happen today even though today we learn for a half period. first thing first, i've lost my friends' assignment. One of my friend, said that i have lost their assignment and they gave me an odd face to me. i felt really stupid, cause i told them yesterday that i put on the table in the class. then, this morning they said they can't find it. i apologized to them that i lost it, i didn't mean to lost it. and i think i'm having a lost memory for a while. i forgot to give them back. i'm totally feel bad and i'm sorry again. next time, i will not borrow their assignment, i'm afraid that it will happen again.

after that happen, i did not have mood to talk, i just keep silent and do my own things. then, again one of my friends ask me that she wanted a front page for PJ assignment, then i thought the lecturer wants it next week, i still didn't print the front page. we were at the library, and i dont know where i can print my front page. so, i go to 'koperasi' to check whether they still got a printer.well, clearly not. and then, i told her that 'kopeasi' did not have a printer anymore. but, she just silent and did not respond anything. you do not know how my feeling at that time. i ask all my friends to print, but seems like they did not care. but, Alhamdulillah....Ima, the person who help me to print that front page. even though at first she's quiet hesitate to help because we have to get through a long walk to go back to the hostel for a one paper. i mean, who really cares if we need help unless they really understand our situation. i wanted to cry, but i know here, i got to be strong. seriously, i felt really helpless, i thought there is no one could help me. Alhamdulillah, Allah s.w.t take care of me and that is why He opened Ima's heart to help me.

after everything settled, i go back to hostel and felt numb. i feel unorganized..feel like want to hug someone i love and someone i miss a lot. can you feel the feeling of being left out? well, i guess to day is my fault day. i dont know some people maybe unsatisfied with my attitude, but if you don't like me, just say it to my face then. so, do not talk behind my back, ok. and i'll try to accept it. we are as human being should complete each other because we are not perfect in all things. i have went through so many things today. i'll keep it as an experience for me and share it with my beloved cousins...