positive....is everyTHING! ^_^

you know...it is hard actually to be a positive thinker when you already 'thick' with negative thinking. so, that is why, every second of my life, there must be a -ve thinking in my head. it's hard to get rid of it. seriously! ayooo...hard la.. but, i must always always build up a positive thinking. because when you think negative, you feel like you can't go on. feel like you're some kind of loser sometimes. okey, for example, when i made a mistake. i always angry at myself like "why i did this! why i didn't think that way! aduhh...stupid la you Rushy..." (well, kind of like that.) when i think again. isn't that when you said like that, your confidence will be more lower than before. so, my advice..don't you ever be like me. like blame yourself for everything. actually, that is not your fault.it's just that.....we are imperfect human being right. so, everybody makes mistakes. it is normal to make a mistake in our life. compare to people who they think they are perfect, totally inhuman i guess.

actually, i should react like this when i make a mistake..."Rushy, you're actually like this...like this...and like this....next time, remember don't do that again.."  isn't that more mature...okey, like all my friends said, i should stop being a hot-tempered person. am i? i don't know la..before this, i quiet not agree with that statement because i know what kind of person i am..but, like everyone said only other people can see my mistakes. so, maybe as an evidence i'm a hot-tempered person is this story. It happened in 2nd semester, i went to the cafe and wanted to buy a dinner. but, i said i wanted to take it after 'Isyak' prayer. so, i went to the surau first. i had not eaten since in the afternoon. then, after i went to the cafe, i asked auntie at the cafe..

me: Auntie, where is my dinner?
Auntie: ouh..ha....this one, the one that you order is actually we don't have a chicken..so, cannot la...you must order something else.. 

then, in my heart i was like "what?! you want me to order something else and you want me to wait for another hours?" don't you know how it feel like when you have not eaten since in the afternoon...then, you stomach is freaking growling. then, she want you to wait for another hours and it almost 9.30...so i said okay, then i order something else..seems like, i don't wanna talk to much. i just follow them...so, i wait and wait..the most ridiculous thing that which made me REALLY piss off was that the one that i ordered was already done. BUT, she didn't want to give it to me..something like this:


Me: auntie, how much?
auntie: ouh..this one, this one is not yours..this is for chinese...
inside my heart i said 'please..please auntie..don't make me say this..please..' but unfortunately, it burst out..
me: auntie, i have been waiting for this for so long...pity me laaaa auntie.....(maybe with a 10 cent face that night, maybe like a wanted-to-cry face also...ehehhe..funny la..cry just for a dinner...but, it worked!) i didn't cry la..it's just....a sad face..


finally, i negotiated with her..then, finally she gave it to me. fuhhh...it was a long night...so, when i think back. yeah...maybe that incident showed to me that i'm kind of immature and unprofessional person. i'll try to change that...InsyaAllah...i'll try to be professional next time. and i hope this so-called Tsunami name that my friends give to me will be vanish forever and ever..and also, Alhamdulillah..i feel much happier that before now! and my friends are AWESOME..even though sometimes they kind of lost their mind, but, it's okay..as long as they happy and be positive and not sign up their name in Tanjung Rambutan...

i think it's just my face..i always think, why i need to smile while it is not funny at all. so, that is why i just keep it silent and keep it a straight face. but, actually, that makes everyone thinks that i'm kind of stuck up or something. ok la fine...i'll smile next time. just smile and wave, smile and wave..~~ 
  

p/s: thanks again to my 'Lujnah' for giving me an opportunity to make it up my mistakes and my responsibility to Islam. i have been in a junction for quiet a while.. thanks 4 the advices.. =)