wish i can start over

how i am going to say this....uummpph..i dont know what happen to me recently. i feel odd, weird and awkward. sometimes, i don't know what i'm doing. i feel very numb and stupid. today, Miss Leong said something that caught my mind. "life is not easy". that's what she said. yup, life is totally not easy. but, you need to survive your life. i feel very tired of myself. why i need to ignore someone who is actually before this treat me well and be there when i need a shoulder to cry on. i feel ashamed on myself. is like i leave someone who is actually care about me, always want to make me better and fix my mistakes. yeah well, sometime we just don't realize what we have done and someday when the times comes, then we realize how stupid we are. why we wanna play with such drama....ouhhh... *sigh

i think i still can't be a good friend to all my friends and i'm regrettably sorry. i'm sorry.....before this, i always want to criticize someone, every minute, every second. i'm sorry....i'm sooo sorry. i can't be a good friend. i think i'm not. i wish i can start over. this is sad and pathetic story. i feel like i do not have friends anymore. feel like everybody don't wanna be my friens. i've been ignore...well, serve me right...serve me right....i wish everything back to normal and i wanna live my life here. i wanna make this campus experience is meaningful to me. then, in future i can tell my children that i have a wonderful friends here and how thankful i am to have such friends..

i'm sorry....i wish i can start over.
to all my friends (to Am especially)
thanks for being my friend and advice me this and that..thanks for being a good friend. yes, you're a good friend and i'm really impress about you sometimes. 

she's sometimes....like..confident to herself. she don't care what people are going to say about her. fuhhh....well, i think i'm more calm now. after a while i've been keeping this. finally, it comes out.. (even tough is in blog..i don't mind) feel much better! love all to my friends!  xoxoxo