pushed

I hate the fact that I have to push myself to write a journal because of other circumstances.I mean, felt like being tied with certain ground rules and I hate it.Suddenly I became so conscious on certain aspects on how I want to write this and that.so,on a second thought, I'm not sure whether it's good of having a journal or it's just part of the disaster that will reveal parts of your secrets. but, I'm going to give my journal to Madam Flory anyway.just wanna see how's her reaction.of course,whether she's like it or not.It's my journal.not hers.