two things

listening and repeating 'bad day' song by Daniel Powter has been actually a lot of calming song for this temporary moment. I didn't feel demotivate but it's nice to have this feeling for once in while. being so blue but keep moving on.look up and keep walking. everything has gone wild a bit. you got fucked up.lost, people bashed on your final decisions. sometimes you cant make the right choices. there's no support from both sides. the system booed you, the lecturers against you. what do you have now is yourself and friends. Lenka has said in her lyrics "take every moment, you know that you own them, it's all up to you to do whatever you choose.live like you're dying and never stop trying." use everything that has been given to you. The script has said in their lyrics as well in 'six degrees of separation' song like "you're doing all these things out of desperation. and when you admit that you may fucked up a little". if people don't understand you, why need to be bothered? so, live the moment.

1. met halfway with soulsister
2. Stupid CPT

so, those two things are the main events for this semester. The CPT is the test that I will hate the most in my life cause because of it, my career is in the jeopardy. and I might probably be hating the lecturers (one that particular person) who keep pushing us to the edge as if asking us for suicide. it's not a shame to say that they just wanna live their own life. I mean, go ahead. I seriously don't really care anymore cause I've had enough. my hands and mouth are literally tied with sickening rope. since the foundation year, it's going to be like this till the graduation year or perhaps after that, it's gonna get worse. when there's a good lecturer, there's also a bad lecturer. Bad here doesn't mean really bad, kejam, jahil or whatsoever. but, as Amalina said, where is the nilai kemanusiaan? yes, professional dah ada, proximity between students dah ada, you got all that. you know the rules and regulations. tapi, mana nilai kemanusiaan? no pity to your students at all ke apa? well, I should be telling you what is the CPT right? no, google it yourself. but, Alhamdulillah. CPT done. yet another obstacle came. InsyaAllah, I will face it calmly. InsyaAllah.

the first part was the best part ever. I finally got a chance to meet my soulsister! it's been awhile and we were dying to see each other. Planned to see at Shah Alam. then, we window shopped at IOI Mall and Setia City Mall. All we did were food hunting. things we like to do the most. can't wait for this up coming holiday. Thank Allah for giving me her as my closest friend. :')

fin