I’ve been losing sleep these past few weeks. I didn’t sleep well. Having a hard time to even close my eyes and floating to dreamland. Compared to last semesters I set my sleep time. I would sleep exactly at 12.00 o’clock or even earlier than that. But now, I’m in such a mess. My sleep time is out of nowhere, my bedroom looks like the 90’s bookstores. Sometimes when I slept, I accidently kicked the books at the sides. My bedroom doesn’t exactly what I wanted to call it as ‘bedroom’. Bedroom is supposed to have a relaxing feeling once you lay on the pillow without thinking any other works to finish by the time you wake up in the morning.

Still, my life has been challenging.

Submitting the assignments within the dateline, made viva slides for supervisor, packing some books and clothes, searching for homestay for family aaand our apartment was running out of water one day before my family came. But I took it well. Except for one time I lashed to one of my classmates cause she’s bugging too much. other than that, I managed to breathe in and get through it. I really keep my temper damn well towards my supervisor. That evil witch. If I was lack of faith, I’d probably slap her in the face really hard already. I don’t want to explain more about this. Not yet. Cause that part would be in another post since I got a lottt to say about her. I’m not saying she’s cruel but sometimes, she can be mean.

 There are three types of human in this world,

One, a person who take care the relationship with God and humans. Second, a person who take care the relationship with God but not with humans. Third, a person who take care the relationship with human but not with God.

Get what I mean?

19.9.2014.

She never expected to see herself indulging with books and crazy to travel, wanted to explore the world 23 years ago. she never expect that her friends would complement her as hard-working girl or whatever they wanted to praise back in 23 years ago. It’s true, she couldn’t foresee her future. Weirdly enough, she was kinda surprised herself for loving books too much and being curious too much. while for travelling well, she always wanted to go somewhere far when she was a kid. She wanted to see how other people run their daily life. But, when she was a kid, she always thought that she was hopeless as she was a spoiled brat child who loved to disturb her parents too much. Stubborn, rebellious, all the negative behaviours. She never was like her nieces and nephews. They achieved high marks in schools while she was, the average. She entered gymnastic once when she was in middle school but her niece got in. she played squash last time but lost. Tried another sport which was badminton. Again, she didn’t get in.. life sucked back then.  All she wanted to do is playing, have fun, live life. She hated reading textbooks. she hated studying.

But things slowly started to change. Curiosity happened.

 She started to love history class. She slowly read novels. She started to get curious of what happened to the characters in the novel. She wanted to read more. She learned how to be independent with guidance by her nieces. Memorised the road at the town and tried to find her way home. She got addicted with caffeine and foods.  Bittersweet moments coloured her life. She fell in love and got broken-hearted. She was sad but it was fine now. it’s difficult to define ‘fine’ for a girl. Fine could be okay while having a tub of ice-cream while watching Forrest Gump Movie or fine could be listening to sad songs and cried until she fall asleep.

After all those 23 years, she’d never expected that her life has come this far. She’s still has so many things to do or to explore. Sometimes she was like wondering, “do you travelling so much rashidah?” while staring at the map that she pasted on the wall. “do you like books and reading so much rashidah?” while looking at stacks of books. But you know, perhaps..

She’s a girl with a mission,

A mission to travel as far as she could go..meeting strangers along the way, sharing the knowledge of the world and thinking how life can be amazing sometimes.

A girl who tries to find some random talents...trying to figure out what she’s capable of.

A girl with an adventurous heart.. she wants to do bungee jumping, paragliding, rock or wall climbing, everything.

She wants to do more by pushing her limits to the edge.

Still, she’s just one type of girl in this world.

Happy Birthday, Rushy.