Tired Of this irresponsible figure~~

"So where is the passion when you need it the most Oh, you and I 
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost." 

i quote this statement because it not comes from myself. it is a Daniel Powder's Bad Day lyric. its totally meaningful for me and my friends today. Our TESL lecturers scold us this morning after assembly. it is totally serious and i never thought that it becomes more serious and serious. Like i said yesterday that i had a public speaking. so, they are mad about that. Most of J unit did not attend the public speaking. well~ actually..........including me also. i was so damn tired yesterday. i overslept even though my roommate had wake me up. after i woke up, i looked at the clock, it was 3.30 p.m and i was afraid to knock the door, i was the one and only who will attend that competition...so, i tried to ask my friends' opinion. they all gave the reason it was already late and there was no use to go there anymore. but, inside my feeling, i felt guilty and i lose the opportunity.


seriously i think from now on, i'm totally ashamed of myself. i was too afraid to go there because it was already late. But, the most person that i embarrass are my senior TESL. i dont know where SHOULD I PUT MY FACE. they will label me as a bad performance for unit J this year for this college. i still feel guilty and it keeps haunting me....well, serve my right~~

but, seriously i tell you, me and my friends are totally have a bad day today. not enough with the anger of our TESL lecturers, out Social Studies lecturer angry at us too..i cannot control myself, i cry little bit. He totally make us lose our mouths. speechless, everyone are put on their gloom face on class. i never expect it will turn out like this and some of my friends were even lied to him yesterday, that makes him more disappointed. honestly, i dont know what will happen to this TESL in this college if TESL Cohort 2 are not here anymore, they will fly off to Warwick, United Kingdom. i dont know how to perform well like them because we are not as good as them~~