feeling helpless~~

sometimes, when you feeling helpless...you feel like want to kill yourself..i'm not joking~ most of magazine that i read, they said, most of people who feeling depressed or helpless will intend to end up their life with strangle their own necks with ropes or whatever they have. but, i'm not gonna do that. because i still know what is good and what is bad. i still hold on to Allah's rope. even though it still quiet slippery and i always almost want to release that rope..but i'll try my best to do not release this precious ROPE. life is a test isn't it? you can't get a way from a depression or problems. but, i wanna tell you what i do to release the 'helpless feeling'. 


if i can't work on what i need to do, for example, i can't figure it out what the freaking L.des assignment wants me to do, i will think first. i will ask, 'okey, what should i do?'. if its not working, i will rethink again. if its not working again, i will more focus. still, it doesn't work out. and then, that is the time i will piss off! i talked to myself and get angry to myself. then, i grab my cellphone, take an earphone and go out from my bloody tension room (for this time, but my room is not always 'bloody tension') so, i put my earphone and listen to the relaxing musics. if i feel like i wanna cry, i will cry as much as i can. because from that, i can swept away all my sadness...but i'm not only crying....i'm crying while i'm thinking the solution. yeah, crying will not solve your problem but sometimes crying will make you feel better. trust me~


plus, about listening to music. it's not a rock, pop, or hip hop musics that i listen too. i listen to motivation musics. what? music can motivate us? yeaaa.....and its have been working on me since i was in secondary school. when i'm feeling helpless, i will listen to music. and when i hear that songs, it will bring me into tears. i will listen carefully to the songs that i listen too...to know what this song is all about. i like Anna Nalick-Breathe...it's really good. Maher Zain-InsyaAllah, Daniel Powder-Bad Day, Greg Laswell-Girls just wanna have fun, . its a lot actually...but, you, yourself...need to discover. but, also...DO NOT forget the prayer. you will feel more relaxing after recite prayer and ask for His help. tell everything what is playing on your mind...tell Allah..talk to Him. Sometimes, when you having problems, He actually gives the problems because He miss you....He miss to hear your voice..begging and seeking for His help. trust me, you will not regret at all~~ i hope will hold on tight to Allah's rope. InsyaAllah~~