fight the feeling

my previous entry seemed rather disturbed. yes, it was.there's the time you feel so down about yourself and thinking what's the point of being alive.you need to know what that is called.it's called the depression mode.and that's why positive thinking is super important in your life. it actually time-taking, to fight the feeling.what I did was, ignore the 'devil' feeling, read Quran, pray hard, exercising and go for a walk. and by a walk I mean it won't hurt your bank account to have a little shopping for yourself wouldn't it? another important thing is talk with someone, just anyone. I called my ayah or my soulsister when I feel down. you know this feeling will come uninvited. so, you wouldn't expecting it. sometimes it's my own fault of thinking too much of what I wanted to be.can't I just let myself enjoy the moment and just you know, what the heck. you can't have it all in the world, ain't it? I was expecting too much, disappointed too much, regret too much of who I wanna be friends with, who I wanna fall in love with, where I wanna go to, and what I'm going to be though it's pretty much clear for a moment that I'm going to be an English teacher in the future. the past is for better future. all of us need to realize that, and so do I. don't regret with the past. and this is note to myself as well, enjoy the moment, follow the flow, don't let the cloudy storm heads over your head. it's okay to let the rain pouring down to your face cause we're humans anyway. a freakish-ly emotional little creatures. if you were about to facing the depression mode just like I did.do what I did.or perhaps you have your own alternatives which is even better. you know, like katy perry song, no regret.just love. 

live the moment. :) 

-rushy

p/s: and here, I leave you some motivational notes.xoxo

“You can be the most beautiful person in the world and everybody sees light and rainbows when they look at you, but if you yourself don’t know it, all of that doesn’t even matter. Every second that you spend on doubting your worth, every moment that you use to criticize yourself; is a second of your life wasted, is a moment of your life thrown away. It’s not like you have forever, so don’t waste any of your seconds, don’t throw even one of your moments away.”   

No one is going to love you if you don’t love yourself.