a secret and stories

i really hope that nobody knows this place. this blog. i regretted a bit for sharing the link outside on twitter and tumblr (dont know why i did that)

this place supposed to be a secret. (except for shiron and am) as far as i know, they don't bother about a blog anymore. the world perspective has changing and so do the people. they are more happy updating their personal life in facebook and let the whole worldwide know about it. where i rather have my personal view. but if let say, some people have discovered this then, i think they're amazing people. like how?

so anyway, my eyesight is getting worse. i went for a checkup last month and it increased from 400 to 450. my eye prescriptions. i find it hard to believe at first but then, i just hope that i will not increase any further in the future.

i'm having a headache right now. i think its the weather. i dont know why but my body is quick to react when the weather is too hot. i just couldnt tolerate with a hot sunny weather which is why i prefer the rainy season. i dont mind getting my clothes wet on  rainy day as long as its not too blazing hot.

another story, i submitted the application for master. i did. and i am more than happy to be able to do that. eventho i dont know how far that this would work but, i did it anyway. you know what keeps me going? people might be wondering, its been like what? 3-4 years i graduated, why now?

its my life goal.

i wrote it since the first year of working. i said to myself since the year i was in maktab. i said to in front of my classmates when i did a presentation about something related to education (i think) i said, i want to continue my study. reason? i want to see how far as i can go. that's it. that's all about it. simple as that. i dont mind nothing else but as long as i can reach this one, then i'll reach my satisfaction in life. for some people it maybe to have children, marriage, a house or travel to places. but for me, this. of course i want all those but talking about priority, this comes first. and Allah knows. He knows what i've been chasing all these years. you know, talking about this whole story is actually a lot of things happened along the way. of how i applied more than 3 times for application form. in some other places. it was so much challenging to decide. ive been thinking a lot about this.

but sure i do think about other else. like marriage and a house.

its not easy. but which comes first.

may Allah ease everything for me. and for all of you who happen to read this blog.

love,
rushy