peak of a mountain

i feel like being single is the highest point of my life. today i watched back the travel video i made when i was in bali. looked back all the travel photos. it make me smile. looking and feel satisfied i havent wasted much of my single life.

surprisingly, life works itself out. its true. sometimes when i think back, this is exactly what i imagined my life's gonna be when i was a teenager or young adult. its like living thru this moment, kinda surreal.

i remembered when i was in school and college, i worked my life out. i wanted to be able to travel, then go on a trip with friends. have fun anywhere i go. have a simple life like wake up on weekend, go out for morning jogging, do laundry and watch tv or read books. its just that. i didnt ask for much.

i didnt ask for millions, getting rich or being able to shop til drop or be someone famous. none of that. because for me, less is more. simple is comfortable.

but ive been thru hell of relationships. it always didnt work out. sometimes i wondered what went wrong. all the failed relationships made me appreciate the little things more, like i said. able to sit alone in a coffee shop and mind my own business is already a bliss for me.

but like i said, life works itself out. and then there's guy. unpredictable and spontaneous. got me speechless. i didnt plan to fall at all. after all those ups and downs, heart breaks every time when it comes to relationship. but then i guess, coming up to this stage and age. we couldnt care less anymore. i guess, as you get older, it tires you out to argue or be upset with each other for a long time. dating when you're almost reaching the end of your 20s is like are we doing this or not? i got shit to do.

but to be able to embrace those single moment, i never regret it once. to be able to roam estrange places with different people, different language. i learn about myself. it opened my eyes. i'm able to see what real struggle means, what it feels like to be oppressed, what feminists feel like, what stereotyping means, stuff like that. thats why whenever i heard girls married young i was like why, just why..you have a lot of ways to go. a lot of energy to be flowed into.

because time couldn't be reversed. you can't go back to your young age and start over. universe doesn't work that way. might as well you live in those moment, think rationally. especially as a woman. there's a lot consequences to be taken into. be wise and intelligent.

stay gold

love,
rushy