I was planning to put my title for this entry called 'the spend-thrift' but something came up and I had to change it.I was quite upset about what happened but I didn't wanna bring the issue any longer.

it felt like I've been pushed away.totally not okay.I'm afraid that there's something wrong with me.it's whether they're afraid or I am not good enough for them. of course I felt frustrated cause this happened two or three times before.I was never thought that they're pushing a lil bit more harder than before and heck, I was totally felt like I've been isolated.I mean, why? you see this worries me.because it involving the important matter and it will be affect me too.if it's going to be like this for the rest of the year, I'm afraid that I can't continue any longer. 

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