I was planning to put my title for this entry called 'the spend-thrift' but something came up and I had to change it.I was quite upset about what happened but I didn't wanna bring the issue any longer.

it felt like I've been pushed away.totally not okay.I'm afraid that there's something wrong with me.it's whether they're afraid or I am not good enough for them. of course I felt frustrated cause this happened two or three times before.I was never thought that they're pushing a lil bit more harder than before and heck, I was totally felt like I've been isolated.I mean, why? you see this worries me.because it involving the important matter and it will be affect me too.if it's going to be like this for the rest of the year, I'm afraid that I can't continue any longer. 

fin

we can stand by our own without you

thinking about the attitude of them make me want to throw some pies at their faces.the dis-likeness become more obvious and obvious.why is it so hard to lend a hand.bukannya susah sangat pun.we are classmates, is is so hard? facing their faces in the class, I think that won't be hard.but, having a conversation with them? I don't think so.I'll not going to entertain you guys anymore.this is the last straw.last night at the hall, we were tried so hard to built up the notice boards, did you guys know how heavy that thing is? and how long that we are (LADIES) here can hold on to that boards.and WE are the LADIES have to carry the weight of the boards all the way down.don't you ever think of that? don't ever concern how we (the LADIES) are going to carry some heavy tables and put at our lot? some were looking, wondering were the guys in our class.some even asked about them and is is ashamed that other classes know about their attitude.If you lazy enough to help us, why don't you just at least show up your faces and telling that 'I'm here, if you need any help.' susah sangat ke? takkan nak kena call dulu, baru nak datang.but, even if we called,would you ever show up? ask yourself dude.if you have a pride, then screw up.cause you guys don't have it.I'm sorry.you don't have it.but,remember, that Allah itu Maha Adil.Alhamdulillah..without your help, we manage to carry on the exhibition nicely and even though there is no helping hands of the guys, Allah gives us the strength to carry on, we can still manage to packed all things up.pandai-pandailah fikir yang mana baik dan yang mana buruk, you guys are grown up already and be thought how to respect a lady even though we are not your special ones.






we are ladies,so,act like a gentleman.

confession

I don't know how I'm going to say this,but,I'm going to anyhow.I have to.I mean,it hurts.

ok.so,all of us are not perfect and the percentage to be criticized by your friends are 65 percent. me? 99.999 percent.I got criticized all the time.eeeeverytime.I don't really know what's that person's problem.am not perfect? sure enough we're not.am I dumb? a little bit crazy yea..but,being the victim of criticism is just to much.way down too much.I couldn't careless about this before but,I just can take it any longer now..it's okay if its just among us in a circle but do you have to tell other friends? 
sorry if the real me is disturbing you.but, I will not entertain you by behaving so damn poise as much as I can JUST to make sure that the people praise me or talk nice about me.let me say it this way,I don't give a damn what people want to say about me as long as I'm not breaking the rules of religion,social or norms.this is who I am,and nobody said you had to like it.I always imagine that you could drink your words and realize how bitter they taste.then,you'll know how I feel.and of course, my attitude is based on how you treat me.


but I hate when it comes to this,cause no matter how hard and hurtful your words are.I can't neglected you just like that.cause I already took and consider you as my best friend's lists.you should be lucky. 

dam.you're so slow.

Yes, I'm angry.and no, I'm not angry to anyone.I'm just mad at my stupid wireless.it's not working very well lately.I need to do my homework you dumb wireless.so slow like a mother 'f'.

unavoidable fakers

sometimes i try my best not to say cruel things toward my friends cause it's an appropriate.but. you know.the feeling.when you get really angry and you just want to give them a hell or cursing them.then, you'll feel so damn relief.back after five minutes.you'll feel guilty.so.it's a complicated situation.when I'm on this kind of situation.I'd rather walk away.Better I just walk off from the person that lights on my anger before I say something cruel or do cruel things.I can be kind and cruel sometimes.depend on the situations.so,do not trying to be funny in a serious situation.